this is my first single apartment. i don't really like living alone as much as i thought i would.

i am working on my first mixed media that had no strictures and was not a class assignment... it is, like many of my pieces are and will be, based on an alanis morissette song.

this week was my first time encountering anxiety attacks... i had two on friday and one on monday.

i am on depression medication for the first time in my life.

this is the first time where i have decided that depression cannot and will not mean physically hurting myself.

i am loving my first year at seminary. much good is to come from being here.

this is the first time where i have moved somewhere because i wanted to be somewhere.

i am finding myself bewildered at politics and unsure and confused and... for the first time in a long time, i do not want to vote.

this i am i am this or i am this i am.

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Change.

New beginnings.

Interests.

New loves.

Chance.

New risks.

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Bring it on life.

Last journal entry I wanted to write children's books.

This journal entry I want to publish poetry (hence my removal of my poetry from deviantart).

I also may be removing my photographs, because I may start trying to sell some in a local coffee shop.

I'm at the point, where's it like, "What's the point of being an artist, if your only community is online? And... Free?"

Sorry deviants. I guess the deviant in me is being deviant of the deviant... Erm, or something.

The fantasy book has about 58 pages done. There's more hope for you. I was upset when Sky told me that he would be published soon ~ but he told me, "Hey... My publication, only thirty some odd people in the world will be able to understand it. Yours, will touch everybody."

Or something like that.

(Thanks buddy... I hope you mean it, and I hope that it touches you. Seeing as that it's our love story and all...)

Anyways, I should probably rest.

i think that i want to try to write/illustrate some children's books.

can i do it?

I'm learning that life is a balancing act...

Finding where intellect and spiritual meet in the middle.

Finding where the feminist and the stay-at-home meet together.

Finding where unknown and faith collide.

Etc.

Etc.

Etc.

I'm in a good place. And I'm excited... Life is getting bigger and a bit bolder, and I yike it!